Disappoint

So last night I was laying in bed and something hit me. I have finally realized why I have trouble with certain people. In my head I have a expectation of how things should go. If I say something or do something, there is a certain way that I think people should respond. I plan this all out in my head of exactly how it will go and look.

I have an expectation of what I want and more often than not, what I have as the perfect scenario in my head does not happen in real life. And so instead of being satisfied or thinking about what the person did do, I am upset about how they didn't do what I thought they should do.

I spend so much time focusing on what they didn't do, that I do not focus on what they did do. I spend so much time being disappointed that I don't notice the small things that people do for me because I am thinking about how it didn't meet my expectations. I finally realized that instead of being disappointed by what didn't happen I need to focus on what they did do and use that to make my decision.

I know this won't be easy for me because this is a habit I have had for a long time. But I know I need to be happy with what people do or say instead of focusing on how it didn't meet my expectations. But, for me to have the best relationships possible with everyone, I need to do this. It will only help myself and others.