Why is it that sometimes doing something for yourself requires you to hurt others. I need some time off and for some reason that has required me to hurt someone I care deeply about. I know I need the time, yet it still hurts so bad!!
I am a very private person (which thanks Allison for reiterating that tonight :) ) and I take care of things by myself. I am not one to talk about my feelings--instead I retreat into my shell, ponder and write until I have come to a conclusion. I would also include painting and listening to lots of music in there as part of my therapy as well. I wonder what that says about me and what other people think about that. I wish I had the ability to turn to other people but this has always been how I have been...sorry itc!!
I am worried that my inability to turn to people will turn on me and I could be by myself for a very long time. And unfortunately will all of the changes in my life I have lots of things to mull over. I have been one person for 10 years and now that I am on my own I am not sure of who I truly am when I stand on my own two feet. And what a big decision to decide that. And I am worried that may require a little bit of an extended stay in my shell to figure out....
1 day ago
1 comment:
It's ok my little turtle friend. For a long time I let your turtle habits hurt my feelings, but then I learned that you always come out. Usually an even better friend. Besides that it's not about me or anyone else for that matter. This is your life. Make it all about you. I love you. I will be there for you if you ever decide you need some grass or water or something.
Post a Comment