Anti-social

So I have been very anti-social lately. I would have thought that with all of my spare time that I would be hanging out with people all the time. Instead, I am finding myself alone and not minding it like I thought that I might. I do get bored and wish that I had someone around to talk to whenever I wanted, but I am feeling fairly comfortable in my solitude.

I am a pretty gregarious person so I did not expect to deal with the changes in my life alone. But, it seems that this change is something only I can deal with. I do talk to people about it, but my reflective time has really taught me a lot. I feel like I have begun to really discover myself in my solitude. I know that I have a lot to learn, but it is nice to know that I am spending time getting to know myself. Just me, not attaching my existence to another person. I am finding out who Cara is and I think that is so important. I am anxious and excited to base my decision on myself. But I can tell you that starting over is a scary thing!